Had a dream that I was on my way to new york with my guy friend that I'll be living with and while stopped at a gas station to fill up the amtrak station, I decided to pop in and check out what was in said gas station - look for sunglasses or something, and my friend and the amtrak left without me. I know what this dream means, it makes perfect sense to me...
***After re-reading this entry once arriving home from work, I felt like it was plagued with negative rambling. Although I am allowed to have sad, angry, worrisome thoughts about not getting enough support or the overwhelming feeling of needing to prove something to my family, or the utter fear that this journey is impossible to begin- this nightmare has a positive opportunity hiding within it. Yes, it was a bad dream but I shouldn't dwell on the poor feelings I have surrounding my moving out and on in the real world that made this dream happen. This dream should be a motivator. "I know that won't happen to me because 1. I am motivated enough. 2. It's my choice. 3. No one can stop me but myself and 4. Amtrak doesn't use gas stations.
It is my life and I choose to live it.
End of story.
<3alex
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